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Saturday, November 28, 2015

Trance Night

I propose that on News Years Eve, 2015 at exactly 00:00 GMT  or Zulu time, we all light up our favorite weed, kick back with a loved one and maybe some nice wine and possibly some good trance music ( maybe Dr Hook % Astrix).
Chill for a while and allow yourself to return to your childhood. Take this opportunity while you still can for it may not come again. strive to abandon violence in your daily lives, yes, it is hard to do but it can be done!

And please, do your best not to stereotype those you meet. Make an effort to walk in their shoes, at least for a little while. You may find you're it for a pleasant surprise.

We are all in this together,folks and nobody get out alive.

Love and Happy Holidays to all!  -- Papa Purple Haze

Please pass this on!

An Invitation To All.

I propose that on News Years Eve, 2015 at exactly 00:00 GMT  or Zulu time, we all light up our favorite weed, kick back with a loved one and maybe some nice wine and possibly some good trance music ( maybe Dr Hook % Astrix).
Chill for a while and allow yourself to return to your childhood. Take this opportunity while you still can for it may not come again. strive to abandon violence in your daily lives, yes, it is hard to do but it can be done!

And please, do your best not to stereotype those you meet. Make an effort to walk in their shoes, at least for a little while. You may find you're it for a pleasant surprise.

We are all in this together,folks and nobody get out alive.

Love and Happy Holidays to all!  -- Papa Purple Haze

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Dribbling...(and we're not talking basketball!)

Ya know, if I could dribble as well on the basketball court as I do in my diapers I could be an NBA star!
After my last visit with Dr F, it became increasingly clear that I'm  probably going to leak urine on pretty much a continuing basis for the rest of my life.
Other than diapers, the only other practical solution seems to be a 'penile clamp'. Yea, that's right.
Because they are 'medical supplies' they cost $60 for a pack of 6.
I figure I can save some money by picking out a standard hose clamp at ACE Hardware for a buck fifty or so.
We'll see just see how helpful the hardware wants to be when I ask him to size it for me!
Actually, maybe a 10" to 12" AC duct clamp would fit better.
My only problem with this arrangement is that it may be kind of awkward stepping up to a public urinal, whipping out my dick, (what little there is of it) and then whipping out a Phillips screwdriver to unscrew the clamp so I can finally pee. (I'll just tell 'em that this is OZ and I'm the Tin fucking Woodman!

The incontinence is getting old really fast. There hasn't been a store that Karen and I have been in in the past month or so where I haven't managed to piss myself. If I had a pee fetish, it would be exiting...I guess, but, unfortunately my fetishes tend to run in other directions.

Well, enough about my adventures bleeding my lizard!

We are getting ready for a dinner of broiled bison...YUM!! Haven't had that in AGES!

It is Thanksgiving eve. I am thankful that I and our immediate and extended families are at the very least, reasonably healthy and happy.
My heart goes out to those who are not as fortunate, for there are many. Some if us will live out our lives in reasonably good health and comfort and some of us will not.
Probably the most important lesson this disease has taught me is to stand up, look it in the face and find and exploit the humor in it!
Do NOT fear death! It is a normal part of life. Accept it as such. It is the greatest gift that all living creatures possess.

Cheers & Courage To All!

Long-term 'T' Does Not Up Risk for High-grade Prostate Cancer

Testosterone replacement therapy taken for up to 5 years is not associated with an increase in the risk that older men will develop high-grade prostate cancer, according to a study with more than 50,000 men with prostate cancer.

The results were published in the December issue of the Journal of Urology.

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Computer Died Today

After 9 years of faithful service, our primary computer died today. We are now sharing Karen's laptop while we save up enough cash to get another laptop.
It's gonna be awhile since we have no money.

It's gonna take the better part of $500 to replace it. We're just gonna have to share until the money comes along.

Hopefully, this will not present a problem to my millions of dedicated readers. Lol!


Saturday, November 21, 2015

Happy Hour!

It's Saturday night happy hour here at the old corral. Settling down with some bourbon before supper.
The wife and I had a long day of physical work today, mostly landscaping around the house.
We got the whole front area cleaned up (it was a real mess) and got rid of the damaged areas on our big mesquite bush/tree.
I'm sure we'll both feel the effects tomorrow!

We're looking forward to Thanksgiving Day and expect to spend it the way we usually do, together, at home. I personally dislike going out for big doings on the holidays. Way too much shit going on out there with people getting drunk, road rage, accidents and whatnot.
Did I mention that we don't even have TV anymore? The set died a week or so ago and I haven't decided what we're going to do about it yet. personally, I don't really miss it but I know the missus does. When I get ambitious enough I'll pull the thing out of the wall and see if it's just a fuse or something. One thing is certain though, we sure can't afford another one! Lol!

A bit of sad news. Our beloved kitty, Pumpkin appears to be approaching the end of his allotted 'nine lives'. He is at least 19 years old which puts him around late 80s to early 90s in human years.
He is not eating much of anything and moving real slow. I
We are not planning to put him down unless absolutely necessary, mainly because I can't bear the thought of doing so. We hop he will just pass away peacefully and naturally.
When he does go, he will leave a huge empty spot in our hearts.
An afterthought:

This blog or personal diary continues regardless of whether anyone reads it. It is my way of getting in touch with myself as I approach the end of my own life.
The reason I choose to make it public is simply to offer reassurance and support to anyone out there who is going through a similar life scenario. 
The statistics on this site show a healthy number of hits every time there is a new entry yet there are no comments.
I would love to know who you are, especially if you choose to follow this blog on a regular basis which is what the stats indicate.
I set this site up to be 'people friendly' and I used to have followers.
Comments and suggestions are always welcome so feel free to come out of the woodwork and say "hi".

Wishing you all a wonderful holiday season!


Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Some Good News (for a change)

The good news is that I was finally able to find adequate health insurance for 2016. And better yet, it's going to cost about $150 less each month than the policy I had for 2015!
Coverage is nearly identical and most of my doctors are on it, at least the most important ones.
The only downside is that this plan is an HMO rather than a PPO so I'm going to have to stay pretty much 'in network'.

The bad news is that my ophthalmologist (eye doctor) has dropped my current insurance so now I've gotta go through the bother of finding another one who takes the new policy.
It's weird that so many providers are dropping my current insurance provider. :(

That's it for updates.


Sunday, November 15, 2015

Winter Arrives In Arizona!

It looks like 'Old Man Winter' has finally arrived here in Arizona! The weather service is predicting freezing temperatures even here in the valley over the next few days. That really fuels the arthritis, especially in my hands.
I feel sorry for those who have gardens planted as they're going to have to hustle to get them protected.
We're unlikely to actually see any measureable snow down here but it can get nasty cold!

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Bourbon & Pickles...It Just Doesn't Get Any Better Than That!

My back is feeling substantially better today so the wife and I went down to our local food bank and picked up about 60 pounds of fresh veggies for $10.
Part of our haul was a large bag of pickling cucumbers which were in very good shape so I decided to whomp up a couple gallons of my favorite Kosher dills.
I'm not going to publish the recipe here but those millions of fans out there may request it by emailing me at: Just put 'Recipe' in the subject line.

*sips on glass of cheap bourbon*

It's booze night, one of the two nights a week that I get to drink now. I hate to say it but alcohol really seems to help me aches and pains more than all that expensive medication that I get.
Marijuana would most likely be better but I'm gonna have to wait a while for that.
I'm still going to make sure I get a medical card though, in case things take a bad turn in the future.

*another sip*

Well, I can't really think of anything brilliant to talk about right now so I guess I'll just sit back, enjoy more booze and wait for dinner.


Thursday, November 12, 2015

My Poor Back!

I woke up this morning with the worst backache I've had in years. It's been giving me problems ever since I strained it a couple of weeks ago but this is much worse.
I had a big day of sitting around, (dynamically, of course) planned and now I can't even sit comfortably!
Gonna hit the muscle relaxants and pain meds hard today and see if that helps me get around at all.
Can't wait for the weekend so I can have a little "drinkie-poo".

Healthwise, other than the back issue, things have been pretty good lately (knock on wood).
The bladder has been behaving itself to the point of my not having to wear diapers at night! That's been going on for about a week. Very encouraged about that!

I'm sitting here having some oatmeal and one of my wife's super-duper spinach omelettes. Yum!
Looks like I'm gonna have to lie down for awhile due to the back though, so I'm gonna cut this entry short.


Monday, November 09, 2015

Feeling Better Today (thanks for asking)

I'm feeling somewhat better. I really didn't think I was going to get away with all that spontaneous "hard physical work" yesterday without repercussions but I appear to have survived.
I should really do that more often. I've lost a lot of muscle tone over the past few years!

Blood Pressure/Heart:

I do notice a few cardiac irregularities which began after we got home from work yesterday. I'm keeping an eye on them. Hopefully, it's not the Afib coming back.
My blood pressure continues to gradually improve without the hydralazine which is good as I'm already taking 10 pills every morning and another 4 or 5 during the course of the day.
That gets old quickly. (try it sometime!)


I think I'm getting used to not drinking alcohol every night. I'm down to about 10 oz/week now as opposed to nearly 2 liters/week! That was getting expensive!
I have to admit, I still really like my bourbon!

Back Pain:

Gonna see if I can get those lumbar x-rays done this week to see if that will clear the way for an MRI.
I want to at least know what's giving me the bigger back problem, the arthritis or muscle spasms.


No changes there. Still very well controlled with diet and Metformin. A1c stays in the high 5% to low 6% range. My Doc is very impressed. Lol!


Hopefully, no news is good news. PSA is currently 0.3 and slowly rising but so far, it is doing so very slowly. It is not time to take any action yet, thank goodness.
If and when we do, it will probably be hormones, e.g. Lupron or some related drug to try to suppress the testosterone to nearly castrate levels.
This will not cure the disease but should retard it's growth for an indefinite period.
I am not looking forward to that at all!

Bladder Issues:

The radiation induced cystitis is still an issue requiring me to wear adult diapers most of the time.
I remember that I used to make 'Depends™' jokes all the time. Well, not too much anymore. It's totally different when the shoe is on the other foot.
If it keeps on like this too much longer, we may have to consider another surgery to try to resolve it.

Finally, I would like to thank my favorite nephew, Ahren for his mention of me on his 'Movember' page.
He has been very busy doing creative things to raise money for the cause. His goal is only $400 if anyone reading this has a warm heart and deep pockets.
Anyway, I am genuinely touched that he remembered me as there are thousands of men out there who are far worse off than I.
Thank you, Ahren!  -- Uncle Dave


Sunday, November 08, 2015

A Few Minor Updates

Suprise, suprise, suprise! My son Chris just called me from Italy where he is stationed with the USAF. I haven't heard a word from him in about three months. He says he's finally got an internet connection and he wants to Skype.
This should be interesting as he could have at least texted me once or twice during that time!
I'm still uncomfortable communicating with them since the incident just before they got deployed to Italy. (please go back around three months worth of posts to find the story. I'm too tired to post it now plus it'll give you something creative to do!)

I actually did some hard, physical work today and now I'm paying for it! Every muscle in my body hurts. I can't wait to see how I feel tomorrow!

Having some well deserved cheap bourbon and waiting on supper right now.

Well...gotta go change my fucking diaper.


Thursday, November 05, 2015

Have You Hugged A Cancer Patient Today?

The “Movember” Initiative — Every “Movember” (the month formerly known as November) men around the world grow mustaches (“Mo”s in “Strine”) to raise money for prostate cancer research.*
Since 2004, the Movember Foundation, which started in Australia, has raised tens of millions of dollars around the world and is continuously working to increase awareness of prostate cancer within the community and change the attitude men have about their health. Formal branches of the Movember Foundation can now be found in Australia, the UK, the USA, Canada,New Zealand, other European nations, and South Africa, but you can participate anywhere in the world.

*Oh. You don’t know what “Strine” is? Strine is the proper term for Australian slang. It comes with its own dictionary and everything.



Wednesday, November 04, 2015

We've Gone Solar!

The APS (Arizona Public Service) contractor finished installing the solar panels on the roof today.
Installation took three days and was a bit noisy but everything was free and we should be receiving a $30 dollar monthly credit off our electric bill.
The program we're on feeds all the power we generate directly back into the grid so we don't need an expensive storage system.
Basically, APS leases our roof space for 20 years. We start receiving credit immediately and have absolutely zero installation or maintenance costs for the duration of the contract.
We feel it's a good deal as homeowners who choose to own their systems can face expenses as high as $55,000 depending on the size and configuration of the system.

Not too much in health news. No blood in urine since my last urologist appointment. (good thing).
Back pain down to about a 5 and steadily improving. (another good thing).
Lack of good weed. (not a good thing).  Looks like it's gonna be awhile before I can afford to get my card.  :(

Oh well, that's about it.


Tuesday, November 03, 2015

Blood Pressure Beginning To Go Down.

Even after just one day on Dr E's updated med regimen, my blood pressure is about 20-25 mm lower than it has been over the past few days. *breathes a sigh of relief*
Other associated symptoms have improved as well. Looks like I won't have a stroke in the near future.

*crosses fingers*

You'd think I was a hypochondriac the way I journal all this health stuff, wouldn't you? Nope! All this crap is real and just my version of getting older.
I do have OCD though. This link may amuse you. I'm not really this bad but sometimes it's close. Lol!
I'm confident that, when I'm gone, the world will remember me as a literary genius! *smiles*

Well, the Tramadol I just took for the back pain is kicking in and making it damn difficult to think of more bullshit to write about so I guess that's it for now.


Monday, November 02, 2015

Guess What...We Had An Earthquake!

Yes folks, you heard right...we had an earthquake last night around 11:30pm MST.
Supposedly, it was a 4.2 on the Richter scale. Actually, I guess there were three of them just a few minutes apart.
The wife and I had just retired a few minutes prior. I was just nodding off when I heard a sound like a distant, prolonged explosion (about 2 seconds). We felt no shaking or vibration at our location but there were plenty of reports from others in the Phoenix area stating otherwise.
The epicenter was reported to be approx. 10 miles north of Black Canyon City which puts it about 30 miles from us.
An earthquake was the last thing that came to mind when I heard it. I just assumed it was a normal Republican cross, uh...rally. What ever!

I got a couple hours of sleep and then woke up to pee and change my diaper and found I was so dizzy I could barely walk. I was like I'd had a litre of booze with dinner! First thing that came to mind was my blood pressure which has been running very high lately.
A quick check revealed a BP of 178/97. Totally unacceptable! I suspect the changes in my medicines by other doctors has a lot to do with it to say nothing of the fact that I managed to throw my back out again yesterday while bending over to pick up some trash. The pain level approaches 10 on a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the worst pain you can imagine. That happens when I get up from a sitting or lying position. Intense, sustained pain can frequently elevate blood pressure significantly.

I had been prepared to return to work at the Dept. of Elections but we quickly ruled out that possibility due to my back and the BP/dizziness thing. This time, were out for the rest of the election.

That's a lot of money lost that we really need!

So...I elected to go see Dr E to make sure he didn't think I was about to "stroke out", so to speak.
I managed to catch his last appointment of the day (5:00pm).
We tweaked the meds again, this time closer to where he originally had them before the Afib issue in August. He also gave me some stuff for my back. I really hope it lets me get some sleep tonight.

I see him again in six weeks.


Sunday, November 01, 2015

I'm Sick Of Being Sick!

Well, here we go...I'm due back at work tomorrow following hell weekend and now I've thrown my back out again! Pain level about a 7 out of 10.
I was just picking up some scrap paper from the office floor and it hit me like a bulldozer.
This will probably last at least a week if it follows the usual pattern. At least I can walk this time which is a plus.
Work shouldn't be too bad as I'll be sitting in an office chair all day. It's when I get up from sitting, especially prolonged sitting that it really bothers me.

The blood in the urine has stopped...for now but I'm still confined to diapers 24/7. It's a damn good thing I have a diaper fetish! (that was a feeble attempt at humor)

I've started working on the application for my medical marijuana card. I wish I had some right now. It would probably help my back a lot!

Please don't forget to support Bernie Sanders, medical marijuana and, of course, Movember.
Be a sport and grow a moustache! It'll make you feel like a man...unless, of course, you happen to be a woman. If so, go ahead and grow one anyway, if you can. We'll support you here!  ;)

Have a great 'Movember'!