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Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Just When I Said Things Were Looking Good...

The bleeding bladder issue is back, with a vengeance. Last night, I got almost NO sleep due to having to pee about every 10 to 15 minutes, all night!
Went through 3 diapers, well actually 4 by six in the morning. To make that worse, it was mostly blood. It was a hell of a mess.
Tomorrow, I see Dr Y and company. we'll see what he has to say about this mess.

It is now the middle of the day and the bleeding seems to have stopped, at least for a while. I'll also be talking to my new urologist, Dr F about it.
I think we're going to have to go back for more surgery and do it before the beginning of the new year.

*sips bourbon*

Ya know, all this fucking booze is probably responsible for a lot of this...just sayin',

Sometimes lately, I feel like I'm going to pass away soon, I don't really know why. I lie in bed thinking of how my life has been and how patient my wife has been and how much of her life she has given uo for me.
Is this a 'pity party'? Probably,but I don't really care.
I guess it's mostly looking back on my life and accomplishments and seeing, clearly now, what I should have done and didn't.
I just didn't think I would be taking this course in life, of course, I guess most people go through the same thing at one point or another.

I'm off the 'benzos' for a while, at least, even though they DO go well with whiskey, lol!!

Fuck it! I'm off to get some dinner and then, hopefully, some sleep!

Bad mood tonight...sorry!


Monday, December 14, 2015

Not Too Much Going On Lately

Life's been quiet around here for the past few weeks. I've managed to stay out of trouble pretty well with the exception of gaining a few pounds back...again.

A few days ago, I managed to slip and fall on the kitchen floor. It's a hard tile floor and at 270 some pounds, I hit pretty hard. I was down for about 5 minutes before I felt like I could get up.
I assumed that I was really going to feel it the next few days but, believe it or not, I was fine with the exception of a small bruise on my left knee.
It's a good thing I didn't land on my head or the floor could have been damaged!  ;)

Wednesday, December 09, 2015

A Few Short Updates

I finally got around to scheduling my nuclear stress test for January 4th. Hopefully, there won't be any issues with my new health insurance coverage which starts on the 1st.
This test is a bit pricey, just the way to break in a new policy.  ;)

I also picked up a new laptop at It is supposed to arrive tomorrow. I finally figured how to tap into my PayPal line of credit. YAY!!
It's an HP "workhorse" with few bells and whistles but that's really all I need for what I do.
Power wise, it's about the same as my deceased desktop. It sports Windows 7 Professional which is what the wife has and it is 64 bit.
I'm assuming the two machines will be able to talk to each other via the LAN we have set up which is something we couldn't do before because she had Windows Pro and I had Vista.

That's about it for now. Gonna go eat some salad!


Shoe cartoon
Lol! This SO reminds me of myself!

Sunday, December 06, 2015

I really feel like shit tonight! How's that for an opening line?

Today, I Feel Like A Mack Truck Hit Me! Changing Weather I Guess.
It started  out with just generalized aches and pains and then deteriorated into one of my world famous "down with people" days which can frequently stretch into a week or more.
My wife, however is just the opposite. She is the epitome of patience and good humor.
Personally, I don't have a clue how she manages to do that.

Went down to Best Buy yesterday to look for a laptop to replace the desktop I just lost. Found one at a price we could afford. It's an HP Mod# g119dx , very basic but that's really all I need at this point.
Of course, PayPal wouldn't release my $1200 credit line that I've had for years so I'm going to call them tomorrow to see if they'll negotiate. Lol!

*Takes a sip of cheap bourbon*

No heath issues in the family for a change...YAY! However, the next time I see Dr F, my new urologist, I'm going to ask him to order a T-Level to see where my testosterone is at. I've been curious about that for quite a while. It's just a simple blood test.Probably costs $20,000+ but fuck 'em if they can't take a joke!  ;)

Karen is doing a fabulous job on the landscaping while I just sit back in the house and pee my diapers. I sincerely hope to be there if this situation should ever happen to her!
She gives more love and assistance than I deserve and at her own expense!

She holds the distinction of being my 4th wife and my last. Seems I finally got it right!  :)



A blog entry was unintentionally posted last night regarding a health issue involving my wife, Karen.
I misunderstood the meaning of a routine medical report involving her health status and, after a couple of bourbons, wound up posting totally erroneous information,

There is no health issue. I have seriously embarrassed myself.

I apologize to both my wife and anyone who may have happened to read it as well.

There is NOTHING wrong with Karen or any of her lab work. I need to clean up my act as far as accuracy goes! I also need to blog BEFORE I imbibe.

Once again, please disregard anything posted last night as there is absolutely NO truth to it! 


Thursday, December 03, 2015

My Computer's Fallen And it Can't Get Up!

Since I posted last, my PC decided to cash in it's chips (no pun intended) The CPU crapped out so now I'm on the old lady's laptop until I can afford on of my own. ( I think the cat had something to do with it. He's walking around with a real guilty expression on his little bitty kitty face.)

The weather here has been COLD! As low as 33 degrees at night over the past week. We finally had to activate the heat as the house was dropping to the mid sixties at night.
It's hard to believe we're that sensitive, being native New Yorkers and all.

I just received authorization for my nuclear cardiac stress test. They strap you to a chair next to a small thermonuclear device to see if you exhibit any signs of stress. (well, that's what I heard!)
Actually, they just shoot you up with a short lived isotope and a drug to temporarily increase the stroke volume of the heart and then run you through a gamma camera.
Hopefully, the test results will be unremarkable.

Green Bay is off to a dismal start against Detroit at the beginning of the 2nd quarter. 17 to 0!

Health-wise, I've totally forgotten whether I mentioned that I got the report from the lumbar images and they did show arthritic changes so we're not going to fart around with the MRI.
It most likely wouldn't tell us anymore than we already know.

The bladder's fine, no more blood, just diapers. I'm thinking this might be a new look for me.
Just imagine...a morbidly obese, middle aged curmudgeon  with no visible penis and a bad haircut hanging around the house wearing nothing but diapers.
Get the right people on the story and I see SCREENPLAY!

Ok! Time to give the laptop back to the wife. I've gotten into enough mischief for one night!


Saturday, November 28, 2015

Trance Night

I propose that on News Years Eve, 2015 at exactly 00:00 GMT  or Zulu time, we all light up our favorite weed, kick back with a loved one and maybe some nice wine and possibly some good trance music ( maybe Dr Hook % Astrix).
Chill for a while and allow yourself to return to your childhood. Take this opportunity while you still can for it may not come again. strive to abandon violence in your daily lives, yes, it is hard to do but it can be done!

And please, do your best not to stereotype those you meet. Make an effort to walk in their shoes, at least for a little while. You may find you're it for a pleasant surprise.

We are all in this together,folks and nobody get out alive.

Love and Happy Holidays to all!  -- Papa Purple Haze

Please pass this on!

An Invitation To All.

I propose that on News Years Eve, 2015 at exactly 00:00 GMT  or Zulu time, we all light up our favorite weed, kick back with a loved one and maybe some nice wine and possibly some good trance music ( maybe Dr Hook % Astrix).
Chill for a while and allow yourself to return to your childhood. Take this opportunity while you still can for it may not come again. strive to abandon violence in your daily lives, yes, it is hard to do but it can be done!

And please, do your best not to stereotype those you meet. Make an effort to walk in their shoes, at least for a little while. You may find you're it for a pleasant surprise.

We are all in this together,folks and nobody get out alive.

Love and Happy Holidays to all!  -- Papa Purple Haze

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Dribbling...(and we're not talking basketball!)

Ya know, if I could dribble as well on the basketball court as I do in my diapers I could be an NBA star!
After my last visit with Dr F, it became increasingly clear that I'm  probably going to leak urine on pretty much a continuing basis for the rest of my life.
Other than diapers, the only other practical solution seems to be a 'penile clamp'. Yea, that's right.
Because they are 'medical supplies' they cost $60 for a pack of 6.
I figure I can save some money by picking out a standard hose clamp at ACE Hardware for a buck fifty or so.
We'll see just see how helpful the hardware wants to be when I ask him to size it for me!
Actually, maybe a 10" to 12" AC duct clamp would fit better.
My only problem with this arrangement is that it may be kind of awkward stepping up to a public urinal, whipping out my dick, (what little there is of it) and then whipping out a Phillips screwdriver to unscrew the clamp so I can finally pee. (I'll just tell 'em that this is OZ and I'm the Tin fucking Woodman!

The incontinence is getting old really fast. There hasn't been a store that Karen and I have been in in the past month or so where I haven't managed to piss myself. If I had a pee fetish, it would be exiting...I guess, but, unfortunately my fetishes tend to run in other directions.

Well, enough about my adventures bleeding my lizard!

We are getting ready for a dinner of broiled bison...YUM!! Haven't had that in AGES!

It is Thanksgiving eve. I am thankful that I and our immediate and extended families are at the very least, reasonably healthy and happy.
My heart goes out to those who are not as fortunate, for there are many. Some if us will live out our lives in reasonably good health and comfort and some of us will not.
Probably the most important lesson this disease has taught me is to stand up, look it in the face and find and exploit the humor in it!
Do NOT fear death! It is a normal part of life. Accept it as such. It is the greatest gift that all living creatures possess.

Cheers & Courage To All!

Long-term 'T' Does Not Up Risk for High-grade Prostate Cancer

Testosterone replacement therapy taken for up to 5 years is not associated with an increase in the risk that older men will develop high-grade prostate cancer, according to a study with more than 50,000 men with prostate cancer.

The results were published in the December issue of the Journal of Urology.

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Computer Died Today

After 9 years of faithful service, our primary computer died today. We are now sharing Karen's laptop while we save up enough cash to get another laptop.
It's gonna be awhile since we have no money.

It's gonna take the better part of $500 to replace it. We're just gonna have to share until the money comes along.

Hopefully, this will not present a problem to my millions of dedicated readers. Lol!


Saturday, November 21, 2015

Happy Hour!

It's Saturday night happy hour here at the old corral. Settling down with some bourbon before supper.
The wife and I had a long day of physical work today, mostly landscaping around the house.
We got the whole front area cleaned up (it was a real mess) and got rid of the damaged areas on our big mesquite bush/tree.
I'm sure we'll both feel the effects tomorrow!

We're looking forward to Thanksgiving Day and expect to spend it the way we usually do, together, at home. I personally dislike going out for big doings on the holidays. Way too much shit going on out there with people getting drunk, road rage, accidents and whatnot.
Did I mention that we don't even have TV anymore? The set died a week or so ago and I haven't decided what we're going to do about it yet. personally, I don't really miss it but I know the missus does. When I get ambitious enough I'll pull the thing out of the wall and see if it's just a fuse or something. One thing is certain though, we sure can't afford another one! Lol!

A bit of sad news. Our beloved kitty, Pumpkin appears to be approaching the end of his allotted 'nine lives'. He is at least 19 years old which puts him around late 80s to early 90s in human years.
He is not eating much of anything and moving real slow. I
We are not planning to put him down unless absolutely necessary, mainly because I can't bear the thought of doing so. We hop he will just pass away peacefully and naturally.
When he does go, he will leave a huge empty spot in our hearts.
An afterthought:

This blog or personal diary continues regardless of whether anyone reads it. It is my way of getting in touch with myself as I approach the end of my own life.
The reason I choose to make it public is simply to offer reassurance and support to anyone out there who is going through a similar life scenario. 
The statistics on this site show a healthy number of hits every time there is a new entry yet there are no comments.
I would love to know who you are, especially if you choose to follow this blog on a regular basis which is what the stats indicate.
I set this site up to be 'people friendly' and I used to have followers.
Comments and suggestions are always welcome so feel free to come out of the woodwork and say "hi".

Wishing you all a wonderful holiday season!


Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Some Good News (for a change)

The good news is that I was finally able to find adequate health insurance for 2016. And better yet, it's going to cost about $150 less each month than the policy I had for 2015!
Coverage is nearly identical and most of my doctors are on it, at least the most important ones.
The only downside is that this plan is an HMO rather than a PPO so I'm going to have to stay pretty much 'in network'.

The bad news is that my ophthalmologist (eye doctor) has dropped my current insurance so now I've gotta go through the bother of finding another one who takes the new policy.
It's weird that so many providers are dropping my current insurance provider. :(

That's it for updates.


Sunday, November 15, 2015

Winter Arrives In Arizona!

It looks like 'Old Man Winter' has finally arrived here in Arizona! The weather service is predicting freezing temperatures even here in the valley over the next few days. That really fuels the arthritis, especially in my hands.
I feel sorry for those who have gardens planted as they're going to have to hustle to get them protected.
We're unlikely to actually see any measureable snow down here but it can get nasty cold!

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Bourbon & Pickles...It Just Doesn't Get Any Better Than That!

My back is feeling substantially better today so the wife and I went down to our local food bank and picked up about 60 pounds of fresh veggies for $10.
Part of our haul was a large bag of pickling cucumbers which were in very good shape so I decided to whomp up a couple gallons of my favorite Kosher dills.
I'm not going to publish the recipe here but those millions of fans out there may request it by emailing me at: Just put 'Recipe' in the subject line.

*sips on glass of cheap bourbon*

It's booze night, one of the two nights a week that I get to drink now. I hate to say it but alcohol really seems to help me aches and pains more than all that expensive medication that I get.
Marijuana would most likely be better but I'm gonna have to wait a while for that.
I'm still going to make sure I get a medical card though, in case things take a bad turn in the future.

*another sip*

Well, I can't really think of anything brilliant to talk about right now so I guess I'll just sit back, enjoy more booze and wait for dinner.


Thursday, November 12, 2015

My Poor Back!

I woke up this morning with the worst backache I've had in years. It's been giving me problems ever since I strained it a couple of weeks ago but this is much worse.
I had a big day of sitting around, (dynamically, of course) planned and now I can't even sit comfortably!
Gonna hit the muscle relaxants and pain meds hard today and see if that helps me get around at all.
Can't wait for the weekend so I can have a little "drinkie-poo".

Healthwise, other than the back issue, things have been pretty good lately (knock on wood).
The bladder has been behaving itself to the point of my not having to wear diapers at night! That's been going on for about a week. Very encouraged about that!

I'm sitting here having some oatmeal and one of my wife's super-duper spinach omelettes. Yum!
Looks like I'm gonna have to lie down for awhile due to the back though, so I'm gonna cut this entry short.


Monday, November 09, 2015

Feeling Better Today (thanks for asking)

I'm feeling somewhat better. I really didn't think I was going to get away with all that spontaneous "hard physical work" yesterday without repercussions but I appear to have survived.
I should really do that more often. I've lost a lot of muscle tone over the past few years!

Blood Pressure/Heart:

I do notice a few cardiac irregularities which began after we got home from work yesterday. I'm keeping an eye on them. Hopefully, it's not the Afib coming back.
My blood pressure continues to gradually improve without the hydralazine which is good as I'm already taking 10 pills every morning and another 4 or 5 during the course of the day.
That gets old quickly. (try it sometime!)


I think I'm getting used to not drinking alcohol every night. I'm down to about 10 oz/week now as opposed to nearly 2 liters/week! That was getting expensive!
I have to admit, I still really like my bourbon!

Back Pain:

Gonna see if I can get those lumbar x-rays done this week to see if that will clear the way for an MRI.
I want to at least know what's giving me the bigger back problem, the arthritis or muscle spasms.


No changes there. Still very well controlled with diet and Metformin. A1c stays in the high 5% to low 6% range. My Doc is very impressed. Lol!


Hopefully, no news is good news. PSA is currently 0.3 and slowly rising but so far, it is doing so very slowly. It is not time to take any action yet, thank goodness.
If and when we do, it will probably be hormones, e.g. Lupron or some related drug to try to suppress the testosterone to nearly castrate levels.
This will not cure the disease but should retard it's growth for an indefinite period.
I am not looking forward to that at all!

Bladder Issues:

The radiation induced cystitis is still an issue requiring me to wear adult diapers most of the time.
I remember that I used to make 'Depends™' jokes all the time. Well, not too much anymore. It's totally different when the shoe is on the other foot.
If it keeps on like this too much longer, we may have to consider another surgery to try to resolve it.

Finally, I would like to thank my favorite nephew, Ahren for his mention of me on his 'Movember' page.
He has been very busy doing creative things to raise money for the cause. His goal is only $400 if anyone reading this has a warm heart and deep pockets.
Anyway, I am genuinely touched that he remembered me as there are thousands of men out there who are far worse off than I.
Thank you, Ahren!  -- Uncle Dave


Sunday, November 08, 2015

A Few Minor Updates

Suprise, suprise, suprise! My son Chris just called me from Italy where he is stationed with the USAF. I haven't heard a word from him in about three months. He says he's finally got an internet connection and he wants to Skype.
This should be interesting as he could have at least texted me once or twice during that time!
I'm still uncomfortable communicating with them since the incident just before they got deployed to Italy. (please go back around three months worth of posts to find the story. I'm too tired to post it now plus it'll give you something creative to do!)

I actually did some hard, physical work today and now I'm paying for it! Every muscle in my body hurts. I can't wait to see how I feel tomorrow!

Having some well deserved cheap bourbon and waiting on supper right now.

Well...gotta go change my fucking diaper.


Thursday, November 05, 2015

Have You Hugged A Cancer Patient Today?

The “Movember” Initiative — Every “Movember” (the month formerly known as November) men around the world grow mustaches (“Mo”s in “Strine”) to raise money for prostate cancer research.*
Since 2004, the Movember Foundation, which started in Australia, has raised tens of millions of dollars around the world and is continuously working to increase awareness of prostate cancer within the community and change the attitude men have about their health. Formal branches of the Movember Foundation can now be found in Australia, the UK, the USA, Canada,New Zealand, other European nations, and South Africa, but you can participate anywhere in the world.

*Oh. You don’t know what “Strine” is? Strine is the proper term for Australian slang. It comes with its own dictionary and everything.



Wednesday, November 04, 2015

We've Gone Solar!

The APS (Arizona Public Service) contractor finished installing the solar panels on the roof today.
Installation took three days and was a bit noisy but everything was free and we should be receiving a $30 dollar monthly credit off our electric bill.
The program we're on feeds all the power we generate directly back into the grid so we don't need an expensive storage system.
Basically, APS leases our roof space for 20 years. We start receiving credit immediately and have absolutely zero installation or maintenance costs for the duration of the contract.
We feel it's a good deal as homeowners who choose to own their systems can face expenses as high as $55,000 depending on the size and configuration of the system.

Not too much in health news. No blood in urine since my last urologist appointment. (good thing).
Back pain down to about a 5 and steadily improving. (another good thing).
Lack of good weed. (not a good thing).  Looks like it's gonna be awhile before I can afford to get my card.  :(

Oh well, that's about it.


Tuesday, November 03, 2015

Blood Pressure Beginning To Go Down.

Even after just one day on Dr E's updated med regimen, my blood pressure is about 20-25 mm lower than it has been over the past few days. *breathes a sigh of relief*
Other associated symptoms have improved as well. Looks like I won't have a stroke in the near future.

*crosses fingers*

You'd think I was a hypochondriac the way I journal all this health stuff, wouldn't you? Nope! All this crap is real and just my version of getting older.
I do have OCD though. This link may amuse you. I'm not really this bad but sometimes it's close. Lol!
I'm confident that, when I'm gone, the world will remember me as a literary genius! *smiles*

Well, the Tramadol I just took for the back pain is kicking in and making it damn difficult to think of more bullshit to write about so I guess that's it for now.


Monday, November 02, 2015

Guess What...We Had An Earthquake!

Yes folks, you heard right...we had an earthquake last night around 11:30pm MST.
Supposedly, it was a 4.2 on the Richter scale. Actually, I guess there were three of them just a few minutes apart.
The wife and I had just retired a few minutes prior. I was just nodding off when I heard a sound like a distant, prolonged explosion (about 2 seconds). We felt no shaking or vibration at our location but there were plenty of reports from others in the Phoenix area stating otherwise.
The epicenter was reported to be approx. 10 miles north of Black Canyon City which puts it about 30 miles from us.
An earthquake was the last thing that came to mind when I heard it. I just assumed it was a normal Republican cross, uh...rally. What ever!

I got a couple hours of sleep and then woke up to pee and change my diaper and found I was so dizzy I could barely walk. I was like I'd had a litre of booze with dinner! First thing that came to mind was my blood pressure which has been running very high lately.
A quick check revealed a BP of 178/97. Totally unacceptable! I suspect the changes in my medicines by other doctors has a lot to do with it to say nothing of the fact that I managed to throw my back out again yesterday while bending over to pick up some trash. The pain level approaches 10 on a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the worst pain you can imagine. That happens when I get up from a sitting or lying position. Intense, sustained pain can frequently elevate blood pressure significantly.

I had been prepared to return to work at the Dept. of Elections but we quickly ruled out that possibility due to my back and the BP/dizziness thing. This time, were out for the rest of the election.

That's a lot of money lost that we really need!

So...I elected to go see Dr E to make sure he didn't think I was about to "stroke out", so to speak.
I managed to catch his last appointment of the day (5:00pm).
We tweaked the meds again, this time closer to where he originally had them before the Afib issue in August. He also gave me some stuff for my back. I really hope it lets me get some sleep tonight.

I see him again in six weeks.


Sunday, November 01, 2015

I'm Sick Of Being Sick!

Well, here we go...I'm due back at work tomorrow following hell weekend and now I've thrown my back out again! Pain level about a 7 out of 10.
I was just picking up some scrap paper from the office floor and it hit me like a bulldozer.
This will probably last at least a week if it follows the usual pattern. At least I can walk this time which is a plus.
Work shouldn't be too bad as I'll be sitting in an office chair all day. It's when I get up from sitting, especially prolonged sitting that it really bothers me.

The blood in the urine has stopped...for now but I'm still confined to diapers 24/7. It's a damn good thing I have a diaper fetish! (that was a feeble attempt at humor)

I've started working on the application for my medical marijuana card. I wish I had some right now. It would probably help my back a lot!

Please don't forget to support Bernie Sanders, medical marijuana and, of course, Movember.
Be a sport and grow a moustache! It'll make you feel like a man...unless, of course, you happen to be a woman. If so, go ahead and grow one anyway, if you can. We'll support you here!  ;)

Have a great 'Movember'!


Saturday, October 31, 2015

Three Days To Movember … And Counting …

Movember starts on Sunday, Movember 1 upcoming … so it’s very nearly time to clean off that upper lip and get ready to raise some money for prostate cancer research! People want to make this a Movember to Remember

If you don’t know what Movember is or what it has done over the past 12 years, here are a few quick bits of info and relevant links:
It has raised nearly $560 million for prostate cancer and other men’s health research around the world in the past 10 years, and helped to fund some 770 different research initiatives.
Here’s a link to an article giving you some of the history behind the Movember initiative and the different ways you can participate.
Here’s a link to the official Movember web site here in the USA (where you can sign up to help raise money for men’s health and prostate cancer-related research this year).
If you live in another country, click here to find the web site for your country.
Here’s a link to the official history of the Movember Foundation and what it has achieved since its foundation in 2004.
In 2014, Movember raised $89.2 million for men’s health — of which $20.2 million was raised here in the USA. … We can do better!


Happy Belated Halloween!

Hope you all had a happy and safe Halloween night! 

Friday, October 30, 2015

Looks Like Possible Bladder Surgery...Again. :(

Quite honestly, the past few weeks have been hell! The job at the Dept. of Elections turned out to be a lot larger than we anticipated. Over 350,000 ballot returns out of around a million requests.
We have been working 9+ hours per day for the past 12 days with no time off, including weekends.
Neither the wife nor I were prepared for that. We get home grab a bite to eat and go to bed.
Not surprisingly, that gets real old, real fast for a lot of folks it our age bracket. Get up at 5:30 when every civilized person should be asleep and drive 20 something miles through crazy rush hour traffic and then do it all again at the end of the day!

Then, The bladder issue reared it's ugly head again...the good news and the bad news.

Tuesday, October 27, 2015

What Does The Site Need? All Suggestions Considered.

Just a few suggestions would help. If they are everyday stoner garbage, the content will most likely be removed. Creative, intelligent content will take the cause a long way past our competitors!

We all want cannabis to win, right? Well, it won't if we don't sober up for a while and do our activism sober. We will not be taken seriously otherwise!


Sunday, October 25, 2015

Forget T.G.I.F. For Awhile!

Our temporary job at the Dept. of Elections this year is paying well and the people are great, but...

Saturday, October 24, 2015

Doing A Little Work On Blog Site Appearance. Keep Coming Back!

We're trying out a few things to see it we can make the blog site more visually appealing.

Please hang in there with us!


Tuesday, October 20, 2015

Quicky Medical Update!

Just got my PSA draw done last Friday. Results came back today.

0.3...just like it was last time!

This is excellent news, at least for me.

I sincerely hope all those testing this month have similar positive results.


Monday, October 19, 2015

First Day Of Work

The wife and I somehow managed to survive the first day at the Dept. of Erections. It was a good day tet somewhat of a madhouse, mainly due to the fact that the mode of operations had radically changed since we were there last year.
Lots of new rules and a couple of hours to learn them!

Sunday, October 18, 2015

Been A Little Busy Lately!

Tomorrow, the wife and I start seasonal work at the Maricopa County Dept, of Elections. Job will last approx. three weeks. Not too long but it will give us some extra cash that we desperately need right now. This is high stress work and three weeks will seem like twice that!

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

Marijuana Extract Won't Prevent Postsurgery Nausea

*Note: "This is a very different kind of nausea. Still quite effective for many chemo side effects!"
Marijuana Extract Won't Prevent Postsurgery Nausea
THC study halted early because of poor results, side effects

Cardiologist Appointment

Went to see Dr G this evening, Got a lot of questions answered finally!
We decided to go ahead and have the nuclear stress test after all. I'll probably be doing that within the next two months.

We also decided to discontinue the Amiodarone I was on for the AF. Stopping that should allow my heart to resume a relatively normal speed, 65 to 75 BPM.

I also made sure that my records were being sent to my GP and vice versa.

Still no report on the Cat Scan. Of course, yesterday was a holiday so maybe I'll hear something tomorrow.

If there are typos in this post, I apologize. I'm working with another keyboard for awhile. (I managed to spill onion soup on the Lenovo) so now I'm on a used Microsoft ergonomic. (VERY different feel!)

So now I'm really tired and heading for bed. Goodnight!


Monday, October 12, 2015

Friends Of Recreational & Medical Marijuana

Why I created this group:

One of the more important reasons that I decided to create this group is that I am a cancer patient myself. Prostate cancer, stage T2c, Gleason grade 4=3 =7, currently, not in remission.

Although the stats above are not anywhere near as bad as they could be, this is still a potentially lethal disease.

I have been an "on and off toker" for most of my adult life and I truly enjoy good 'weed'.
What upsets me though, is the number of folks and groups out there who are convinced that cannabis "kills cancer".
What's worse is that some of them know the facts and are deliberately trying to dupe the public just for the money.
Of course, there are others who, through medical naivete', tend to believe everything the read on 'Dr Google'.
The are currently NO legitimate stats/studies out there showing that Cannabis "cures" ANY form of cancer!
A human body is vastly different than a Petri dish. In fact, malignant cells grown in the lab are easily destroyed by almost anything!
Admittedly, there ARE quite a few studies from all over the world proving that certain forms of Cannabis DOES, in fact, kill cells outside the body however, that has NEVER been proven in humans In situ.
The folks who are propagating this medical myth are offering false hope to literally MILLIONS of people with myriad neoplasms of all kinds.

Unfortunately, the truth is that no reliable 'cure' exists! When a 'cure' is suspected, it is usually spontaneous remission, not a real cure.
Cancer has long been known to occasionally remiss for indefinite periods of time, sometimes with the patient dying of unrelated causes.
Truthfully, the closest one can realistically get to a 'cure' is when you get a durable response by whatever means with absolutely NO evidence of cancer and wind up passing away from unrelated causes.

With cancer, one is NEVER 'cured'. You are simply in prolonged remission.

Cannabis, like any other drug, has myriad uses in modern, allopathic medicine and I firmly believe that however it DOES NOT 'cure' cancer!
We need to stop propagating that myth.

Cheers!  -- Dave Robbins (Papa Purple Haze)​

Sunday, October 11, 2015

New Facebook Group

Do you do Facebook?

If you do, then join our new group, Friends Of Recreational & Medical Marijuana. A place to discuss anything related to recreational or medical Cannabis.

We are NOT a 'stoner' group nor do we condone the recreational use of so-called hard drugs.

We exist primarily to promote nation wide legalization and legitimate scientific research into the risks and benefits of medical cannabis use.


Friday, October 09, 2015

Cat Scan Details

Well, first of all, I had to drink 40 ounces of barium sulfate  I got lucky and got the 'blueberry flavor'! Then, off we went to the scanning suite.

Tuesday, October 06, 2015

Visit With Dr T (Overview)

The wife and I met with Dr T today to discuss and update her on all my recent health issues. We went way overtime from the usual 15 minutes. She let us have about 45!
Since my blood pressure has been running on the high since the episode of AF (atrial fibrillation), we agreed that we need to tweak some of my medications and then evaluate the response at my next appointment in about a month.
It's gonna be a busy month what with seeing Dr F, Dr E and her, all within a few days of each other.
I hope I can attract this much attention at my funeral! *smiles and chuckles*

We also decided to proceed with the abdominal CT (CAT scan) to try to identify what that 1.6 cm spot is in my left kidney. (At my request, we are going to go the extra mile and use a real cat this time. Much more accurate that way!)  :)
We'll get that done this Thursday and go from there.

As far as the MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) on my lumbar spine, we decided to go with an x-ray first to see if there's anything obvious amiss with the lumbar region. If there is, we will probably go with an MRI since that will make it somewhat easier to justify it to the insurance company.

We also found out that our home scales was out of calibration...again. Turns out I weigh almost six pounds MORE than I previously though! Honestly, that really SUCKS!

More later. Right now, I'm going to gorge myself on a huge pizza (in my mind). *sighs*


Monday, October 05, 2015

Kidney Scan Report Back

I just got the results of last week's kidney scan. I am disappointed to say the least!

I seems I have a 1.7 cm spot on one of my kidneys. The Dr asked me if I had a history of this but I have no way of knowing since this is the first kidney scan I've had.

Hopefully, it's just a benign cyst but with my luck lately, I have to consider the possibility of kidney cancer.

(See Renal Cell Carcinoma)

I see the Dr tomorrow at 10:00am and hope to have more information then. She has ordered a CT scan which I will have done immediately. That should shed considerable light on the issue.


Sunday, October 04, 2015

Nice Quiet Sunday

It's a real nice, quiet Sunday here in paradise. Started out with a little rain early this morning then the sun came out and it turned into a beautiful day! It's 93 degrees and partly.

The wife took off for the grocery store leaving me all by my poor little self.
I really wasn't planning on blogging today but I'm bored so I figure I'll just bore y'all for a while!  Lol!

Still don't have the report from the kidney scan last week. I figure I'll most likely get it tomorrow sometime. Hopefully, it will be unremarkable. All I need is something else wrong with me.

Still been experiencing a lot of insomnia lately. I think my lack of physical activity may have a lot to do with it but I really haven't felt like getting out much due to the 'diaper' issue and all.
I smoked a little weed the past two nights and that helped the insomnia a lot. Unfortunately, I'm nearly out and can't afford any more, at least not right now.

In other news, the wife and I both start seasonal work with the Maricopa County Dept. of Elections on the 19th for three weeks.
I have decided to use a condom catheter for comfort and to avoid embarrassment. Beats the hell out of having to go to the damn men's room to change diapers several times a day, believe me!
The urinary bleeding is still an issue but has improved a lot. Still, any significant pressure on the peritoneal area (such as sitting) usually produces a light bleed. As I mentioned in a previous post, the incontinence has progressively gotten worse and I am now 100% urinary incontintent.

I'm gonna go get my PSA done in a a couple of weeks. The usual anxiety surrounding that is starting to build as usual. I just don't need any bad news right now. It will come eventually but I'd like to postpone that day for as long as possible!

Still slowly losing weight! This is a good thing. I'm at 265 right now and even though my body is turning into Jello, at least i'm feeling better overall.

The diabetes is still very well controlled partly due to the weight loss. Fasting glucose is often in the 90s now which is even better than it was before I was diagnosed as diabetic!
The wife, however seems to be going in the other direction which has me mildly concerned. Although she is by no means obese in any sense of the word, she still is on the heavy side.
We believe if she lost between 10 and 20 pounds, that would solve the problem but losing weight and keeping it off is one of the hardest things in life to accomplish. I wish her all the luck in the world.

As most folks who have either read this journal before or, even better, had the courage to actually  follow me, you may have noticed that I'm not in one of my annoying, whiney, depressive moods. I attribute that to being off alcohol for the last few weeks. Honestly, I really  miss it but I find I can live without it indefinitely.
I'm gonna try to be a good boy. *crosses fingers*


Friday, October 02, 2015

Insurance Company Gets Fucked Over By Another Cancer Patient

CHICAGO—Frustrated executives from the Blue Cross Blue Shield Association announced Friday that they are getting “completely fucked over” by Allentown, PA resident Matthew Greison, a 57-year-old man suffering from an advanced form of Hodgkin’s lymphoma.

Stressing that this is not the first issue they have had with such patients, company sources expressed their outrage to reporters over Greison's “totally unfair” comprehensive health care benefits and claimed the skyrocketing costs of his cancer treatment have gotten out of hand.

“We got the first bill and just couldn’t believe how expensive it was,” said Blue Cross Blue Shield CEO Scott Serota, adding that at first, he thought the invoice was a mistake. “Every visit to the oncologist ran about $140, not to mention the thousands of dollars for every MRI and CT scan, and then the chemotherapy and cancer drugs were more than $10,000 per month. And he paid for maybe—maybe—5 percent of it. The rest was dumped on us.”

“It’s absolute fucking bullshit,” Serota continued. “I can’t believe they’re just allowed to get away with that.”

According to reports, Blue Cross Blue Shield’s expenses have only gotten more unreasonable since Greison was first diagnosed with the life-threatening disease this past March. After an initially successful chemotherapy treatment, the health insurance company was reportedly informed that the cancer was no longer in remission and was forced to pay over $125,000 for a further two weeks of inpatient care in a hospital.

Sources confirmed that such headaches for insurance companies are unfortunately incredibly common when dealing with any cancer patient.

“These assholes are just bleeding us dry here,” said Serota. “We try to talk to them about it, to beg them to just sympathize with our situation, but they just kept bringing up bullshit excuses about deductibles and coinsurance payments and citing all these stupid small-print details about coverage eligibility. All they try to do is get out of paying for anything.”

“Trust me, dealing with these people is a total nightmare,” Serota added.
Serota went on to say that the federal government “has to step in and completely revamp this fucked-up system” and claimed that if nothing is done, many insurance companies could be stuck with increasingly costly health care bills that they will have no choice but to pay for out of their own pockets.

“The bills are really racking up at this point, and it just can’t continue like this,” said Serota, adding that cancer patients will only become harder to deal with if this disturbing trend continues. “For the sake of all insurance companies across the country, something has to change, and change soon. It’s like cancer patients don’t even care about us at all. They’re only concerned about themselves.”

“We’re human beings, goddammit,” added Serota, growing visibly incensed. “They can’t just treat us like this.” At press time, Blue Cross Blue Shield executives were relieved to learn that Greison’s coverage had abruptly expired.

Courtesy: The Onion

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

A Little Health Insurance Humor (Courtesy:


Q. What does HMO actually stand for?

A. This is actually a variation of the phrase, "HEY MOE." Its roots go back to a concept pioneered by Moe of the Three Stooges, who discovered that a patient could be made to forget about the pain in his foot if he was poked hard enough in the eyes.

Q. I just joined an HMO. How difficult will it be to choose the doctor I want?

A. Just slightly more difficult than choosing your parents. Your insurer will provide you with a book listing all the doctors in the plan. These doctors basically fall into two categories-those who are no longer accepting new patients, and those who will see you but are no longer participating in the plan. But don't worry; the remaining doctor who is still in the plan and accepting new patients has an office just a half-day's drive away, and a diploma from a Third World country.

Q. Do all diagnostic procedures require pre-certification?

A. No. Only those you need.

Q. Can I get coverage for my preexisting conditions?

A. Certainly, as long as they don't require any treatment.

Q. What happens if I want to try alternative forms of medicine?

A. You'll need to find alternative forms of payment.

Q. My pharmacy plan only covers generic drugs, but I need the name brand. I tried the Generic Medication, but it gave me a stomach ache. What should I do?

A. Poke yourself in the eye.

Q. What if I'm away from home and I get sick?

A. You really shouldn't do that.

Q. I think I need to see a specialist, but my doctor insists he can handle my problem. Can a general practitioner really perform a radical prostatectomy right in his office?

A. Hard to say, but considering that all you're risking is the $15 co-payment, there's no harm in giving him a shot at it.

Q. Will health care be different in the next century?

A. No. But if you call right now, you might get an appointment by then.

Ultrasound Update

I had the renal ultrasound today to see if there's anything wrong with my kidneys that be contributing to my ongoing hypertension.
It took about 30 minutes as I had to have two separate tests because of a minor miscommunication between my doctor and the lab.
Other than having to hold my breath for prolonged periods, the whole thing was a non-event, as I expected. Should have results in 24 to 48 hours.
The bladder was very cooperative through the whole process (thank goodness!)
I was worried about that because they have you drink 20 to 30 ounces of water beforehand to insure the bladder is as full as possible. (As an incontinent, I was dreading that!)

My weight seems to be remaining at about 265 or 266. It's kind of hard to tell with our scales.
If that's true, it's great news!
It means that I'm not gaining any significant weight despite my occasional binges.
The fact that my wife's cooking for me and regulating my portions seems to be helping a great deal.
If I do the cooking and serving, I almost always overdo it.

Nothing much going on other than that.


Tuesday, September 29, 2015

The Story Of My Life!

Blog Timeline Issue Corrected (Please read)

This post is for anyone who actually has the time and inclination to read this journal from start to finish.

I made the startling discovery just a few hours ago that the entire blog timeline was totally out of chronological order. (At least up to the most recent entries)

The issue has been corrected and I sincerely apologize to any and all readers.

Please feel free to leave a comment if you feel something's not right with the blog and I will do my best to fix it in a timely manner.


Monday, September 28, 2015

Renal Ultrasound Scheduled For Wednesday

Got an appointment for my kidney evaluation this Wednesday. They want to see if there's anything there that might be contributing to my hypertension.
The only downside to this is they insist that I have a full bladder! Considering the fact that I have been totally incontinent for the past few weeks, this promises to be an unpleasant experience.
The procedure should take no more than 20 or 30 minutes but that is an eternity if you have no bladder control. We'll just have to see what happens.

Next on the "procedure" list will hopefully be a lumbar MRI (Magnetic Resonance Imaging) to see what the hell is wrong with my back. It's possible that I have a disc issue resulting in nerve compression. I lifted a heavy object years incorrectly years ago at work and my lower back has never been the same since. It might also be causing the numbness in my feet.
Dr E thinks it's diabetic  peripheral neuropathy but I'm not so sure.
Whether I can get this done or not depends on whether my health insurance will approve it as it is an elective procedure.
Basically, I just want to know what's causing the issue. Whether I get anything done about it, which would likely mean surgery is up in the air.

I finally got through to Dr G, my cardiologist today and we seem to have resolved some of my questions. Turns out his office had my phone number wrong and they had been trying to reach me for a couple of weeks.
Unless he has real problem with it, I think I'm going to forego the nuclear stress test he recommended, at least for a while. I need a break!!

It's a nice evening outside with a few clouds and time for dinner inside. :) Gotta go.


Sunday, September 27, 2015

'Supermoon' And Diapers

Hey, I thought that was a catchy title!

We're out here on the back porch trying to get a decent view of the so-called 'supermoon'. At this moment, it is in total eclipse. I can't imagine anything more exciting to do except possibly watching a live session of Congress. On a scale of 1 to 10, this event rates a 2.
Nah...just kidding!
'Supermoon' Total Eclipse 2015
Here's a pic from our backyard. It was pretty cool! It was high in the sky just at the end of the eclipse.

In other news:

Looks like I'm gonna be in diapers full time now. I can't even stand up and walk around without urine just pouring out. This is getting old real fast, folks!
I guess I'm going to give it another couple of weeks to begin to resolve on it's own. If it persists, I'll have to see Dr F again. I hope this doesn't mean more surgery!
I'm compiling a list of procedures that I've peen putting off for months now because of cost. I've finally met my yearly health insurance deductible and won't have to pay any medical costs until the first of the year. Time to get these things done.

On the lighter side, this really happened down near Nogales recently. Why can't something like that happen to me?  ;) The poor dog wasn't home at the time, I guess.

Enough for tonight.



Friday, September 25, 2015

Update On The Urinary Tract Issue & Other Things

I'm beginning to feel old again! The bleeding from the bladder seems to have stopped, which is great but now I'm stuck wearing goddamn diapers.
It's all good when I'm sitting or lying down but as soon as I get up I wet myself. There seems to be no sphincter control since I had the last surgery.
If things keep up like this too much longer then I'll be back in Dr Fs office way ahead of schedule.

On another note, I'm actually feeling better overall than I have in a couple of months. I actually have enough motivation to get outside and do a few things. Probably sounds contradictory to the first paragraph but it's not, really. Ya gotta be there to understand. *smiles*
I suspect it's mainly due to having some wine a few nights ago. Yeah, that's it, I'm just not drinking enough! Lol!

It looks like were going to be getting solar panels installed on our roof in the next couple of months. This will require me to climb up into our attic crawlspace to remove some stuff. It will test my current level of physical fitness to the max.
I hope I don't piss myself up there! :(

Finances are really tight right now. The wife's and my social security is barely cutting it. If my health continues to hold out, I'm hoping to find some kind of work that someone in my position could do.
Job opportunities in Phoenix are few and far between, especially for folks in my situation.
All we've got so far is three weeks in October working for the Elections Dept. That will get us a little bit caught up but it will be gone in a flash. *sighs*

I've rambled enough for tonight. I'm gonna try to be in bed before three tonight.


Wednesday, September 23, 2015

Erectile function post-radical prostatectomy: the past 20 years

This is very disappointing news for a lot of us. Especially those who are now impotent and still have active disease.
You would think that after 20+ years, medicine would have made a little more progress.

Article courtesy: The "New" prostate Cancer Infolink

It would not be unreasonable to think, some 30+ years after Dr. Pat Walsh started to do nerve-sparing radical prostatectomies at Johns Hopkins, that there might have been a gradual — if small — improvement in the quality of erectile and sexual function post-surgery on average over time. So a group of Austrian and Swiss researchers set out to see if they could demonstrate this.

We need to be clear that their interest was exclusively in whether there had been improvements based solely on surgical technique — regardless of the use of other “aids” — and most especially other aids like new drugs and similar forms of assistance. So what they did was the looked for all the data they could find from the control arms of trials designed to test whether things like new drugs (and most commonly new drugs like sidenafil/Viagra, tadalafil/Cialis, etc.). In other words, they were interested in the erectile/sexual function of the men in these trials who were given the placebo in the trials.

Schauer et al. were able to identify a total of 11 randomized, controlled trials of penile rehabilitation therapy following radical prostatectomy. These trials were all published between 1997 and 2014. They included a total of 2,009 patients, and 685 of those patients (about a third) were treated with a placebo of some type — or they were just observed without additional treatment — in the control arms of the 11 trials.

Assessment of erectile function in the trials was carried out through use of either the Sexual Encounter Profile (SEP) (in eight of the trials) and/or the International Index of Erectile Function (IIEF) (also in eight of the 11 trials). Here is what Schauer and his colleagues report:
The rates of positive response to SEP3 (i.e., erectile function sufficient for successful intercourse) in the control arms of the eight trials using this evaluation ranged from 20 percent in 1997 through 10 percent in 2003, 19 percent in 2004, 25 percent in 2008, 21 percent in 2010, 67 percent in 2011, 10 percent in 2013, to 22 percent in 2014.
The rates of positive responses to the IIEF-EF in the control arms of the eight trials using this evaluation ranged from 9.2 in 2003 through 13.3 in 2004, 8.8 in 2008, 25 and ≥ 22.0 in 2008, 17.4 in 2010, 58 and ≥ 26.0 in 2011, 9.3 in 2013, to 11.6 in 2014.

The authors conclude that their analysis suggests that (a) the rate of undisturbed erectile function is in the range 20 to 25 percent in most studies and that (b) these rates have not substantially improved or changed over the past 17 years.

In other words, any improvements in the quality of surgery over the past 17 years, on their own, have really been having a very limited impact on the quality of erectile/sexual function for radical prostatectomy patients over most of the past 20 years.

Sunday, September 20, 2015

Cost of medical marijuana in Minnesota leads some to return to illegal sources

It was only a matter of time before this started.

As usual, it's all about the money. To hell with the patient!

Talking To Myself

Ahoy mates!
Did you know it's 'International Talk Like A Pirate Day' me hearties? Arrgh! Well, it won't be by the time anyone besides me reads this but I thought I'd share it anyway.

All righty then!

It is a very quiet Saturday night here. Probably bad for me as it tends to lead me into introspection.
Since I haven't been drinking, I tend to be even more wakeful at night, sometimes staying up as late (or early) as three or four am.
I can't seem to shut my thoughts down until I get so tired that I fall asleep automatically.

I seem to have become obsessed with all the things that are going wrong with me as I approach old age. The transition from middle age is not going as expected. I feel alone in an unfamiliar world that I used to be happy in. Nowadays, it seems like the whole world is crazy.
Every night it's a nearly constant stream of loud cars, even louder motorcycles and fire and police sirens. This hostile, extreme modern world makes me tired...and scared.
It seems like no one can be happy with the simple life. Everything must be extreme now.
America is clearly going to hell in a handbasket. Why can't more of us see that. It seems so clear to me.
I don't fit in anymore. I've always been different from others in myriad ways but now I feel like I've outlived my time.
I constantly worry that I will lose my wife of 24 years and then be truly alone but yet I don't want to precede her because she has seen enough death in her life and I don't want to put her through that.

Drinking used to ease the obsession. I would still think about our respective problems but bourbon would take the edge off and I would sleep.
I'm fully aware that I'm not the only one in the world with these issues yet knowing that doesn't seem to help.

A little bit of good news. We've been asked to work at the Department of Elections  again, for three weeks in October. This will get both the wife and I out of the house and focussed on something other than our problems for a while. I just wish the job lasted longer.
Of course, three or four weeks is probably enough as this job pays quite well. If we make too much money in any calendar year it can negatively effect my government health insurance subsidy. That could theoretically leave my without health coverage and that is something I cannot risk.

It's nearly 11:00pm here in Phoenix and I am getting sleepy but if I lie down I'll just wind up getting right back up again. All this drivel is just a little part of my racing mind.
I'd smoke a little weed which would definitely let me sleep but I'm a bit leery of doing that so soon after that nasty bout of atrial fibrillation. The last thing I want to happen is for that to happen again.
If AF goes on to long there is a real possibility that it may become permanent.

Well, enough of this for tonight. Probably no posts till the early part of the week. See if you can contain your excitement!


P.S. Please consider supporting Bernie Sanders (I -Vt.) for president.

Thursday, September 17, 2015

"Look Ma...No Catheter!"

Saw Dr F today. He did elect to remove the catheter which was a great relief.
The weird part was that for the past six days, my urine has been totally clear of all visible blood...until today. When I got up this morning, it started to bleed again for no apparent reason. Not nearly as hard as before but clearly noticeable.
Dr F doesn't feel this is significant at this time. We are basically going to watch it and wait for the other shoe to drop. If and when it does, there is a good possibility that I'll wind up facing more surgery. The problem is that there are still a lot of unstable capillaries in the bladder that haven't been cauterized yet.
I have a follow up appointment in November. Hopefully, this will remain stable.


Wednesday, September 16, 2015

6th Day With Catheter (Update)

Today is the 6th day wearing the Foley® catheter. Urine is negative for visible blood since last Thursday.
I will get it removed tomorrow at Dr Fs office. This time, we will verify that there is no bleeding before we leave the office!

We will also be making a proactive plan as to what steps we're going to take if my PSA continues to rise.


Sunday, September 13, 2015

Worth A Read (Healthcare Article)

I'm not at all sure if this change is going to help or hinder our already taxed healthcare system.

Either way, I see a lot more physician burnout on the horizon.

I'd be interested in reader comments.


Friday, September 11, 2015

I'ts All About Me...As Usual. Lol!

A few well chosen pics of me in the middle of my latest escapade. (Courtesy: Karen)

PreOp Courtesy: Karen
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PreOp Courtesy: Karen
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PreOp Courtesy: Karen
PreOp Courtesy: Karen

Wednesday, September 09, 2015

So...The Following Morning

So this morning, (Friday) I wake up to a nearly full catheter bag. It looks good, a little concentrated but little or no visible blood.
I'm having my coffee when Dr F calls and wants to know how my night went. I told him all the details including the fact that I didn't get too much sleep, mainly due to frequent bladder spasms.

He is good with that and suggests that I remove the catheter as soon as possible which, frankly, was welcome news! He told me to call him back when I had done that and peed a couple of times.
No biggie.


It wasn't more than 10 or 15 minutes after I removed the catheter that I felt like I had to go again and, guess what? Almost pure blood! Also, quite a mess!

I called him back immediately and caught him in the middle of surgery. He said it was possible that we removed the catheter prematurely and to meet him at his Glendale office at 1:00pm and he would put in another. (Oh goody!)

He saw me within 10 minutes or so of arriving. He did a bladder ultrasound and put in a new catheter.
I have to wear this one for five days instead of one. *sighs*
At least I have a smaller, more portable collection bag this time.

At last look, all is clear. Wish me luck at my next appointment this Thursday.


Tuesday, September 08, 2015

Emergency Bladder Surgery

I'm writing this at 1:30am Friday morning.
I had my appointment with Dr F  2:30pm today. He is excellent! His first priority was to scope out the bladder to find the root cause of the bleeding.
He spotted the problem area immediately and then to our surprise, he said that, because of the extent of the bleed, he would like to admit me to the hospital (again) and address the problem surgically.

He was shocked to hear that they didn't admit me when I went into emergency a few nights ago.

A couple of hours later, I was admitted to John C Lincoln hospital.

His plan was straightforward. To go in with a cystoscope with a wider angle view than the one he used at the office and cauterize the affected area. (This was done under general anesthesia.)

The whole procedure took about 30 minutes and left me with a Foley catheter for 24 hours. (The same setup that I had after the prostate surgery in 2012) Annoying but not too uncomfortable.

The problem area turned out to be radiation scarring from the course of IMRT that I had after the surgery. This is not bladder cancer, thank goodness!
Part of the scarring issue is the formation of tiny, friable capillaries which are extremely sensitive to any kind of trauma and will tend to bleed at a moment's notice. The biggest issue here is that I was on an anticoagulant medicine for the atrial fib.
This makes the bleeding harder to control. The medicine usually takes four or five days to fully clear the system and there is no antidote.

Fortunately, I was able to return home but not before it was nearly midnight. A perfect way to spend a Thursday evening!


Urologist Appointment

I finally managed to book an appointment with Dr. F this Thursday. Now maybe we can get to the bottom of this damn bleeding!

As I mentioned before, my two greatest concerns are that the cause is either recurrence or spread of the original prostate cancer or if not that, bladder cancer.
Unfortunately, I have all of the risk factors for the latter. :(
We will just have to hope that we've caught it early if that is the case.


Monday, September 07, 2015

Midnight Emergency Room Visit

It seems I just can't stay out of hospitals lately!

We wound up taking me into our friendly, local emergency room at midnight last night due to the extent of the urinary blood issue. We were there for about an hour. (Where else would I want to be on a Sunday night?)
The amount of passed blood had gotten abruptly worse so I felt that it would be wise to at least get it looked at.

Turns out, they didn't feel it qualified as an emergency so they just did a quick examination and a urinalyses which was negative with the exception of the obvious presence of blood.
I was hoping they would do a cystoscopy on the spot so we could get to the bottom of the issue right then.

(Not gonna happen.)

They said that the main concern right then was to make sure the bleeding cleared on it's own and I was to follow up ASAP with my new urologist. (Well duh!!)

The wife and I finally got to bed around 2:00am. It just doesn't get any better than that!


Friday, September 04, 2015

New Urologist... Maybe?

Well it looks like we may have found me a new "pee doc"! That may not sound like big, exciting news but it is for me! We will refer to him as "Dr. F.
I have not seen him yet but his stats are excellent, he's close by and, best of all, it appears that he takes my health insurance! Yay!
If the wife and I are both comfortable with him, he will probably replace Dr. K.
I'm going to set up an appointment ASAP to see if we can get this hematuria thing resolved.

In other news:

Dr. G, my cardiologist, has still not decided whether we're going ahead with the nuclear stress test.
I feel pretty good myself and I still think my slight shortness of breath which prompted the idea of a stress test to begin with was caused by a combination of morbid obesity (yes, I'm fat) and the high dose of Amiodarone that he had me on. Additionally, my pulse rate has been averaging 45 to 50 BPM since he put me on that stuff. Normal resting pulse is around 72 BPM unless you're a long distance runner or something. That tends to sap the energy a little bit too.
Still, it might be a good idea to have one anyway to rule out anything else.

Made a few changes and additions to the page. Please feel free to use them as they were put there for a reason. Also, feel free to comment. The are a number of ways to do that here.
I always like to hear from those who are bored enough to actually read this stuff. Lol!
When you have millions of devoted fans like I do, and you don't hear from them once in a while, it starts to get lonely.

At any rate, I'm beginning to get sleepy so I'm gonna sign off for tonight.


Thursday, September 03, 2015

What A Day! *sighs*

It's been a pretty busy day for this old man. I didn't get as much sleep as I could have since I chose to stay up till three AM this morning.

Slept in as long as I could till the 'pee alarm' got me to get up. (It's very reliable!)

Had lunch and then it was time to go get our flu shots.
Note: If you are in our age bracket (60+), it is very important to get both the seasonal flu and also the pneumonia vaccines! Influenza can and does kill hundreds of people yearly.

So anyway, we got done with that and I started to do some work on the blog. I'm trying to lure in the 'Googlebots' so I can get some web traffic.
Unfortunately, somewhere along the line, I lost virtually all the formatting for the page! Man, was I PISSED!
Took the rest of the day to put the damn thing back together again.
The real funny part was that ever since I migrated all the data over here from the other site, I never remembered to back it up. Lol! You better believe it is now!

I guess that's about it for tonight. I still have other stuff to do so it'll probably be a late night again.
Now that I'm so to speak, 'on the wagon', at least for awhile, I find it really hard to get to sleep.
It's a damn good thing I'm retired and usually don't have to get up at any specific time!


Tuesday, September 01, 2015

Memories Of 2012 (Warning: Graphic Content)

I really don't remember whether I posted this a long time ago but for those who are interested (or just morbidly curious), this is what you get left with after an RRP.

This was an open procedure, not laparoscopic.

Can I do a 'selfie' or what?  Lol!

For my next trick, I'll post a movie of my last colonoscopy. (Just kidding!)
Photo six inch prostatectomy incision 2012
My Six Inch Incision From RRP (Radical Retropubic Prostatectomy ) In 2012

Blood In Urine Back Again

After taking a couple of weeks off, the intermittent bleeding is back. I have no idea what is going on here. All I know is that unexplained bleeding from any orifice is not desirable!

Just had a comprehensive urinalyses done and the values were all within normal range. WTF?
As I said in a previous rant, I just hope it has nothing to do with the cancer.
I wonder if it could have something to do with the radiation therapy I had after my surgery?

Been off the booze for over a month now. I miss it! It's a bit of a record for me, *smiles*. I find it difficult to fill in the "happy hour" gap in the evening. The wife isn't drinking either so that makes abstaining a little easier.
Weight is down to 268 lbs. Somehow, someway I've gotta get to 260 come Hell or high water.
Actually, the lack of booze should help to facilitate that goal.

On a more cheerful note, I couldn't resist the temptation to post this beautiful photo. It was taken by my wife last night at sunset.
Direction of view is southwest taken from our backyard. Hope you enjoy!


 Photo of evening sunburst in Phoenix from back yard.
Evening sunburst in Phoenix

Monday, August 24, 2015


It appears that some dingbat has either accidentally or intentionally broken the right side mirror on our S-10. I'm looking into our auto insurance as we can't afford a replacement outright.
In the meantime, I'm going to have to find some way of securing it so it isn't dangerous for the wife to drive.

*thinks about a nice glass of bourbon...again!*

Tired tonight and a little out of sorts. No idea why.

Maybe I just need a good dinner and an early bedtime.

The wife is taking better care of me than I deserve. I am trying hard to reciprocate in kind. I often tend to be quite self centered with a nasty double standard. At least I acknowledge and usually try to communicate on her terms. I guess that's a start.

I would also do well to cut back on my use of Clonazepam (Klonopin®) but it really seems to relax the lumbar area of my back thereby effectively reliving the pain. *works well on insomnia too*

On the bright side, I got a really nice note from my favorite nephew today. It really brightened my mood. Thanks Ahren & Brandi! Love You!


Sunday, August 23, 2015

Tired And Bored Stiff

It's one of those nights where I'm tired and bored yet my mind is still racing. That's kind if odd since I've been experiencing mild "mental slowness" for a couple of weeks now. (no smart ass comments from the peanut gallery!)
It's possible it's the meds but there is a small possibility that my brain, (what little there is of it) may not be getting enough oxygen for one reason or another.
I'm sure we'll find out when I have the nuclear stress test in a couple of weeks.

Frankly, I really wish I could have a couple of drinks or smoke a little weed but unfortunately, both options are out, at least for the foreseeable future due to the heart thing.  :(
I just hate going to bed and then just winding up tossing and turning all night. Sometimes I don't get to sleep until around five or six  in the morning.
My wife, on the other hand, is usually fast asleep within five minutes of coming to bed!

The urinary issue continues to improve. No urgency or blood in the past few days (knock on wood). This is a good thing.

I often wonder why anyone other than myself would stay up at night reading a cancer blog. I guess I just have no life. Lol!

Just finished dinner and now I'm starting to have carb cravings. Can't satisfy 'em though 'cause I have fuel injection. Damn!

Gotta work tomorrow so I'm gonna try and get some shuteye.

Y'all have a cold one for me, ya heah?


Friday, August 21, 2015

Today's Exciting Medical Update!

As promised, here's the scoop on today's visit with Dr. E.
All is well. We actually took the time to make sure everyone is on the same page regarding all the new changes that have been happening lately.
He gave me a small 'motivational' speech about my weight loss (or lack thereof) and gave me a prescription for Clobetasol Cream® for the psoriasis on my poor little feet.
We addressed the hematuria issue and he is not concerned at this time. He feels it may be an occult urethritis. He says keep drinking plenty of water. Urine culture added to the labs that Dr. G wanted, scheduled a follow-up appointment and that was about it.

Gonna go eat dinner and watch a sci-fi movie with the wife.


Thursday, August 20, 2015

My Son And Grand Daughter

I really couldn't resist sharing these two recent pics of my son Chris and grand daughter Arabella.
Chris is a tech sergeant in the USAF and currently stationed at Shaw AFB in Sumpter, SC.
They will be moving to Italy for 4 years in a little less the 2 weeks.
Both the wife and I will miss them tremendously.

*drools while looking at the plates!*