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Friday, November 30, 2012

My Friday Afternoon Treatment

Date: 2012-11-30 19:17:34

The waiting room at the treatment center was really crowded today. Usually, there's 0 to 1 patients there. Today, there were three!
They apparently were running a little behind.
We had a lady with a brain tumor, a guy with squamous cell lung cancer
and a guy with bleeding stage 4 rectal cancer.
That was MY afternoon! How was yours?

*Sips wine and laughs at fate!*

We go to see a movie this weekend with one of our friends. Great.
Now I get to hear her moan and groan about HER problems which she usually brings upon herself!
WTF...I guess I'm no different. Fuck it!

*More wine*

As I probably mentioned earlier, the disease is a bit worse than I thought. I am trying to come to grips with the real possibility that I have less than a decade left. You really don't get "cured" of this, you just learn to live with it.
You are definitely going to die early, you just don't know precisely when.

I feel that I'm dissociating, becoming an observer rather than a participant. It's peaceful and yet scary at the same time.
I just keep telling myself that every year I can stay alive there is new research to try. We'll see.


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Full Moon Update

Date: 2012-11-28 20:40:21

Did I mention that we got the Monday morning sewer block resolved for a mere $30.00 USD? It's a damn good thing I'm a plumber!

Did I also mention that we are now up to $35,000 USD for my treatments? All I can say is I sure hope this works!!!

All I know right now is that I recently found out that a Gleason 4 3=7 is generally SIGNIFICANTLY worse as far as ten year survival stats than than a 3 4=7.

*Drinks more wine*

I really wanted to survive more tha a decade but now I'm not so sure that's gonna happen. At least the wife will get some money.

It's gonna be about 2 years before we run out of money to pay the insurance premiums unless things radically change. That's when all the good stuff will start to happen I'm sure, so stay tuned! ;)


Monday, November 26, 2012

A Variety Of News

Date: 2012-11-26 18:55:15

Where should I begin...? Why, at the beginning, of course!
I'll just bet this sounds like it's gonna be a long dramatic post.
Well, it's not!

*Pours some cheap wine*

Went back on radiation today after 4 days off. Saw the oncologist after the treatment and got a LITTLE encouraging news.
It turns out that, despite what I thought in my infinite wisdom, if my PSA values don't return to <0.01 after completion of the treatments, it DOES NOT automatically mean treatment failure and metastatic disease.
It actually might take several months to come down. He also said that even if it doesn't return to zero, as long as it doesn't start climbing, he is not concerned.

*Sips wine*

So I get home and what do I find? No, not the wife in bed with another man. No, far worse than that...the damn kitchen sink backed up!
I could just shoot the other man but I can't shoot the sink. (Messy!)
I learned that in plumbing school.
At any rate, it's not a simple clog under the sink. It's gotta be a major plug somewhere between the outside clean-out and the main sewer line. Tomorrow, I go get a sewer snake and clean out the damn thing in between trips to the bathroom!

*Refills glass and sips more wine*

Pork chops for dinner tonight! I'm gonna go fix ' between trips to the bathroom. :)


Saturday, November 24, 2012

Thanksgiving Day/Black Friday

Date: 2012-11-24 13:30:08

I've been kind of quiet lately because there really haven't been any changes worthy of note.

I've gotta say this though, it's nice to have a four day break from radiation. Thursday was a BITCH! We had decided to spend Thanksgiving Day with one of our grand kids, have an early dinner, take in a movie and then come back for dessert.
I was plagued all day with significant abdominal discomfort along with lots of fatigue. I am thinking I may need to resume the use of adult diapers until treatments are finished. Seems like every day lately is just one continuous trip to the bathroom.
Hopefully this issue won't become any worse in the next few weeks.

We had planned to go out dove hunting over the long weekend but now that's off too. The wife came down with a nasty cold on Friday and I'm still not feeling well so it looks like another slow weekend at home. We have a couple of commitments on Sunday which I will cover. With any luck, I won't catch her cold! We'll see.

Friday was 'Black Friday', the busiest day of the year for retail. We stayed hidden at home but heard a few horror stories regarding the storm of shoppers!
Wal-Mart opened their doors at 9:00pm Thursday and went all night. We heard reports of lines being several blocks long at some retail outlets!
I really don't understand what people think their getting, bargain wise in all this. Most retailers aren't going to give you a REAL bargain unless they think they can't sell the stuff.
Oh well.

At least the weather's been good to us. We've been sitting out on the back porch a lot lately as evening comes on. Temperatures in the seventies!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

A Nice Weekend

Date: 2012-11-18 17:57:58

Weekends are still WAY too short but this one was a lot of fun.
The wife got invited to an ladies only upland bird hunt (pheasant/chukar)up in Prescott so we went up there on Saturday. We stopped off for breakfast at Denny's and then made the hour or so drive to Prescott.
She was signed up for the afternoon hunt and the weather turned out to be perfect other than a gusty wind despite a 30% chance of rain.
She went out for over three hours with two other gals, a guide and a bird dog.
She wound up bagging a chukar which we are having for dinner tonight along with some pheasant shot by others.
At any rate, I'm real proud of her! :)

It's getting a little harder to plan long outings as I find an increasing need to stay near a restroom. Lol!
I DO hope this issue resolves after the treatments are finished but is not, it's something I can work with as long as it doesn't get too much worse. At least it seems to be the only significant side effect so far.

*Pours 3rd glass of wine*

Wanna know the secret of how to drink this much wine and still journal...? A damn good spell checker! ROTFL!

A few funnies that were passed along to me:

I have kleptomania,
and when it  gets bad,
I take something for it.

Except that one where you're  naked in church.

Sometimes too much to drink isn't  enough.
Suicidal identical twin kills sister by mistake!

My short-term memory is not as  sharp as it used to be.
Also, my short-term memory's not as sharp as  it used to be.

Welcome to  Utah
Set  your watch back 20 years.

In just two days from  now,
tomorrow will be yesterday.

 A bartender is just a  pharmacist
with a limited inventory

 I may be schizophrenic,
but at  least I have each other.

I am a Nobody.
Nobody is  Perfect.
Therefore I am Perfect.

Five million  people,
Fifteen last names.

I'm not your type.
I'm not  inflatable.

Dyslexics Have More Nuf.

Sometimes I even put it in the food.

When you work here,
you can  name your own salary.
I named mine, &quot;Fred&quot;.

I Really think this next one  is TRUE!!!  
Money isn't everything,
but it  sure keeps the kids in touch.

Reality is only an  illusion
that occurs due to a lack of alcohol.

 I like cats too.
Let's exchange  recipes.


Red meat is not bad for you
Fuzzy green  meat that was red is bad for you.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Radiation Proctitis???

Date: 2012-11-14 10:54:57

I think I'm beginning to have signs of radiation proctitis.
Radiation proctitis in basically inflammation of the lower colon and rectum due to direct irritation from ionizing radiation, e.g. x-rays, gamma rays etc.
Been getting bowel discomfart [sic] a lot lately, especially right after treatment. Also, a lot of audible bowel sounds! (Embarrassing)
Going to see Dr. Y, my RO today anyway so I'll run that by him.

Starting to worry a bit about all this time, money and treatments still not eradicating the cancer.
Maybe it wasn't the margins after all. Maybe possible micromets???
I feel way to young to be going into something like this.
I'll be 60 years old in March but I won't feel any different at 70 or even 80!
What the hell, maybe I should just go out, get run over by a bus and get it over with.

My coping skills SUCK!


Saturday, November 10, 2012

22 More Treatments To Go

Date: 2012-11-10 18:49:43

Well, this Monday I get my 14th radiation treatment. Only 22 more to go!
I'm starting to feel the cumulative results in my lower abdomen. Sort of a mild sensitivity or dull ache that seems to go and come.
Trips to the bathroom are getting more frequent! That's a fact.
Hopefully, after the treatments are complete, these issues will resolve on their own. If not, I have a new lifestyle! ;)
That's OK. The alternative is worse!

It's cooled down a LOT here in Phoenix. In the low 50s here right now! Feels good but the cold front tends to bring on aches and pains.
Makes me want to curl up in front of a fire with a cat on my head! Lol!

*Pours a glass of wine*

We're having leftovers tonight. Good ones!
My weight has gone from 255 at diagnosis to 285! I just regained every damn pound I worked so hard to lose!
It's becoming very clear that I'm my own worst enemy.

Just got the first professional haircut I've had in at LEAST the past 12 years! &quot;I have to be seen to be believed!&quot;
Quote stolen from Her Majesty, Queen Elizabeth II.

And for fun...

Prostate Exam

A man
goes to his doctor for his physical and gets sent to the Urologist as
a precaution.

When he gets there, he discovers the
urologist is a very pretty female doctor.

The female
doctor says, 'I'm going to check your prostate today, but this new
procedure is a little different from what you are probably used to. I
want you to lie on your right side, bend your knees, then while I
check your prostate, take a deep breath and say, 99.'

The guy obeys
and says, '99'!

The doctor says, 'Great. Now turn
over on your left side and again, while I repeat the check, take a
deep breath and say, 99.'

Again, the guy says,

The doctor said, 'Very good. Now then,
I want you to lie on your back with your knees raised. I'm going
to check your prostate with this hand, and with the other hand I'm
going to hold on to your penis to keep it out of the way. Now
take a deep breath and say, 99.'

The guy begins,
'One ... Two ... Three'... (Courtesy,


Tuesday, November 06, 2012

Congratulations President Obama!

Date: 2012-11-06 21:53:19

Barack Obama has officially won four more years and I couldn't be happier! I can be insured for another four years!
The right wing fringe is saying goodbye to America as we know it.
I say &quot;don't let the door hit your ass on the way out&quot;!

I am a TRUE American, not a dim witted pseudo-patriot! America needs more than Jesus, gun rights and white power.

Maybe there REALLY IS a God!


Monday, November 05, 2012

Full Cremation???

Date: 2012-11-05 20:18:47

I've noticed something interesting on my way to and from the Forum.
To you uninitiated, the &quot;Forum&quot; is my intimate daily meeting with &quot;Linus&quot;, my 2.5 million dollar linear accelerator.

When I  drive home, I always pass a billboard about a mortuary advertising &quot;Full Cremation&quot; for $500 some dollars. WTF???
Is this opposed to &quot;partial cremation&quot; and if so, what exactly constitutes &quot;partial cremation&quot;???
What happens if I can only afford $300? Do I get a coupon that gives me an extra 6 months before I dance with the &quot;Grim Reaper&quot;? they only do me medium rare as opposed to really well done?

I'm not really sure if I want to go there!


Friday, November 02, 2012

Friday Night Fatigue???

Date: 2012-11-02 18:42:44

I think it's possible the treatments are beginning to catch up with me a little. Got hit with major fatigue and abdominal bloating this afternoon. No big deal really, but kind of unexpected.
Other than that, the treatments seem to be going well.

The beginning of a nice, quiet weekend so far. We don't have anything planned. Time to go and get a good sleep! :)
Did I ever mention that we like sleep?! Lol!