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Sunday, March 18, 2018

Kind Of Bored On A Sunday Afternoon

Dear Diary,

It's an unusually quiet Sunday afternoon here in Paradise. I'm just sitting around with the cats and feeling about as lazy as they look!

Wife's working until 5 tonight so I'm just trying to get the house a little bit back together.
Being constantly tethered to a 25-foot oxygen tube is getting old. I tend to keep tripping over the damn thing.

Things have been going a little slow with that because I've been plagued with a persistent case of the trots since I got up this morning. I hate it when that happens! Probably due to the ingestion of too much hot sauce, LOL!

I've got a routine appointment coming up in a couple of days with Dr E, my GP.
He will doubtless be upset about my unfortunate weight gain.
I do realize that probably at least 50 to 60% of this is my fault but I'm still wondering if the hormone that I'm taking for the prostate cancer isn't at least partially to blame.
I'm going to be talking with him about that as well as letting him know that I'm hooking up with a bariatric specialist.

I'm currently at 290 lb and my breathing is beginning to be compromised again. I just seem to have lost my taste for the low-carb high-fat diet that I was on and I don't understand why that would happen.

I think I mentioned in a previous post that I'm planning on discussing the technique of intermittent fasting with the bariatric person. I've never tried it.
Maybe she will have some insights that I'm not aware of.

Lately, for some reason, I seem to have lost my taste for hard liquor. I don't know how that came about but the only thing that I have a taste, for now, is beer and wine and beer is pretty much out of the question so I'm down to just drinking a couple of glasses of wine every once in awhile. Whether I keep on drinking wine depends on how it affects my blood glucose.
My alcohol consumption has seriously diminished which I guess is for the best.
I'm happy to say that I haven't had any significant bouts of fatigue or depression in98 the past few weeks. This is a new, hopefully, upward trend. I hope it doesn't mean that the Lupron isn't working anymore!

As far as the Lupron goes, I really must be one of the lucky ones because going on a year of ADT, I really haven't had any significant side effects whatsoever but I've mentioned that before in previous posts.
If I sound repetitive from time to time, it's because my memory is not what it used to be and that is due to the hormone.

Believe it or not, now that the weather is getting a little better, I'm actually considering trying to get out and do some walking at least every other day. There is very little I could do that would be better for me!
I may also be able to start getting in a little tiny bit of outside work around the house which would be beneficial to my health as well.

I really am trying to start moving forward with these goals but this type of thing has always been hard for me, even in the best of times.

Well, enough rambling for today.
Wish me luck at the doctors on Tuesday!


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Looks Like It's Bye-Bye To Xarelto

Dear Diary,

Woke up feeling out of sorts today (what else is new)? Sure enough...bad news!

After my usual cup of java, I called up Wal-Mart pharmacy to check on the status of my Xarelto order only to find out that I would be responsible for a $200 co-pay for a 30 day supply!
What I had totally forgotten was that the program from Janssen Pharmaceuticals which has provided me with a year and a half of free product is no longer valid since I went on Medicare.

So...I'm sitting here, eating a bowl of soup and planning out what our next move will be if I'm to remain on anticoagulants for the rest of my life.

I've gotta call my cardio guy and see if he is ok with going back on warfarin like I was at the start of this mess. A little more trouble but dirt cheap and effective.

Back to the soup! ;)


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Friday, March 09, 2018

Is It A cold Or Just Spring Fever?

Dear Diary,

I woke up this morning with a scratchy throat. Thought at first it was a side effect of trying my wife's CPAP nasal pillows instead of my usual full face mask. Lo and behold, at the end of today, it's still there.
I've been feeling kind of "off" for a few days now with a really stuffy, runny nose. I've been trying to blame my wife, spring fever or at least, the two cats but now I think something else is afoot. Hmmmm!

We went out to lunch with one of our close friends today and (of course) stuffing ourselves to the very gills. Now I'm gonna feel like a beached whale for the rest of the night!
Probably gonna skip supper and just have a little soup later.

The weather's starting to turn cloudy again for the next few days and I may be feeling the effects of that as well.
It's a good night to retire early and read in bed with a kitty on my chest. I'm so glad I have that luxury! It's not all bad being dirt poor! ;)


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Wednesday, March 07, 2018

Today's Six Minute Walk

Dear Diary,

Just had my latest six-minute walk at St Joe's this morning. Despite my recent weight gain of 28 pounds, I only lost 7 meters in distance from the last time which really surprised me.
Their baseline goal is 400 meters in six minutes. So far, I have always come up short of that.
They really want me to get my BMI down to 33, minimally before they will even consider surgery.
My current calculated BMI is 40 and getting it down to 33 would require me to go from my current weight of 288 to 235 before they would seriously consider cracking my chest open.
This is not an easy task! :(
I am going to follow their advice and have a consultation with one of their bariatric docs. I'm not too optimistic that she will be able to help but I'll at least give it a shot.

Medicare kicked in exactly as expected, thank goodness and we had zero payments or co-pays for today's visit. :)

Today was officially my 65th birthday but I don't feel a day over 90, LOL! Trying to decide if I should allow myself a nice, big chunk of birthday cake!!! Updates to follow.


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Tuesday, March 06, 2018

Probably Set Up To Fail!

Dear Diary,

Alas, the ill-fated six-minute walk at St Joe's is actually tomorrow, the 7th, which also happens to be my 65th birthday. It will commence at 0830 hours and followed up with a consultation with Dr. O, the pulmonologist.

For some reason, I thought the appointment was farther out than that so, unfortunately, I have no time to lose any weight. The added 20 pounds will likely cause me to fail the test. I hope they can see that the weight is responsible for the failure and not disease progression!

This will also be the first time using Medicare so hopefully, that will go well.

*fifteen minutes pass*

Good news! I just got off the phone with the Health Insurance Marketplace and have successfully cancelled my primary insurance, effective March 20th.

Some potentially bad news. It appears Wal-Mart pharmacy is no longer honouring my prescription discount plan for Xarelto, offered by Janssen Pharmaceuticals.
This is bad because I have been eligible to get the drug without cost and now it appears I will have to fork over $200+ each and every month which is not possible for us.
Not sure if this has something to do with the transition to Medicare or not.

More on that later. Gotta go schedule a lab appointment now.


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Sunday, March 04, 2018

Brief Late Night Musing

Dear Diary,

Just a quick post for now regarding my weight.

I have a six-minute walk scheduled within the next two weeks and I'm gonna fail it for sure unless I can drop a few pounds before then. I'm down a couple of pounds since my recent maximum of 289 but I'd really like to show up for the testing at around 279.

I'm still cramming in the carbs which is ridiculous. As a matter of fact, I just finished a large dinner of pasta and sauce (I passed on the garlic bread)!

I just don't understand why I let myself get like this!

More later.


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface

Friday, February 16, 2018

Back From The Abyss...I Hope

Dear Diary,

Well, I guess I've survived the past two weeks of hell. That last post reflects the side of me that rears it's ugly head when I screw up my meds! I'm feeling better but still can't focus properly. I have a lot of trouble making simple choices. The high dose of sertraline helps me cope with the OCD but there is something else going on here as well. I'm still suspecting the Lupron.

Referring back to the last post, I was serious, living in metro Phoenix really does suck and dying here takes the cake. Arizona is beautiful but Phoenix has really turned into a hellhole of pollution, crime, and a major preponderance of assholes.
I swear if it wasn't for my wife, our two kitties and our little backyard sanctuary with its population of feral cats, raccoons, squirrels and various birds, I'd be in a 'rubber room' by now!

*nips on a glass of bourbon*

If I could only manage to get off these damn diuretics I'd be a lot happier. Do you have any idea what it's like to constantly piss all day long? I'm between a rock and a hard place with that. If I take them in the morning, I can't go out for the rest of the day without piss running down my leg. If I wait until the end of the day, I just piss all night in bed!
If I totally stop taking them, I will most likely re-develop pulmonary edema which would most likely land me back in the hospital for a week or so.

*another nip...slightly bigger*

I frequently ponder the question of how long I have left. Do I really want to know? I can't even make up my mind on that! Doesn't really matter though since nobody can tell me anyway.
Lying in bed at night, I often wonder what the status of the myxoma growing in my left atrium is. It's weird having something ticking away in your body that you can't feel and causes no symptoms yet could kill me abruptly, any day, any hour, any second.

One of my favorite followers just emailed me, just before I started to write this. Susan, I will get back to you real soon. I miss hearing from you too! Don't panic, things are cool.

Back to the blog. I can't really think of anything more to write about tonight so I'll log off with a pic of my co-authors. They are where the talent really lies! ;)


"Every day above ground is a good day".  -- Scarface